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About six months ago, I was watching a lot of Apple ads on YouTube and heard something that has never left me. You should watch the YouTube video, it’s truly inspiring. Here’s what I heard:
“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in square holes, the ones who see things differently, they are not fond of rules and have no respect for the status quo.
You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them but the only thing you can’t do, is ignore them because they change things.
They push the human race forward and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius because the people, who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
The past week has ‘killed’ me. It has stripped me of whatever ‘self-importance’ I nursed in the corners of my mind. It has broken me and opened me up to my real self. It has brought me to a deeper level of self-awareness, one I am most grateful for.
When I sat with my MacBook to type my last blog, I never imagined it would generate the kind of attention it did and continues to. I have one last thing to say on this issue before I lay it to rest and move on. (I also hope others can move on too, we have too much going on in this Country to continue to peddle one for longer
than necessary.)
A very big thank you to everyone that has felt it necessary to talk about this issue and spread it throughout Nigeria and the foreign scene. I read every email sent to me with awe that people would take the time out to reach a total stranger like me. Some were cursing, calling me a witch from the pit of hell sent to destroy the church as though one individual/church is bigger than the body of Christ. As though God is mere man and would cringe in heaven saying, “Ese don did it this time.” Or as if the good Book didn’t state clearly that ALL things work out for good for those that love God.
Do you love God? If yes, trust that it will ALL turn around for good.
Some people say, ‘I support you, you are brave and courageous’ and I wonder if those terms really define me. I do not think I am brave or courageous. I do know, however that after decades of sleepwalking through life, I am now becoming aware not just of myself but also of my environment, my world, and the universe.
Some say, put out the evidence and we will believe you. Hmmm, the morning I sat to write that post, I really didn’t expect anyone to believe me. Well, apart from those involved. And my motive was simple, let one more woman be spared. Let one more minister of the gospel be mindful and let the church rise up to its responsibilities as God’s legal representatives here in the earth realm. n
A copy of the ‘evidence’ is with a respected minister of the gospel should the christian body decide to deal with this issue now and that becomes needful. I am not looking to have a ‘me against them’ case where I need to prove I’m right and someone is wrong. I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in.
Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews and whatever else mailing me, I have nothing more to say on this issue. I cannot reply every email as reading them is beginning to seem like a new job.
I remember asking a friend once while reading the book of Acts, “Why do we no longer operate in the power the disciples did in Jesus day?” What has changed? How do we ‘unchange’ it?
God is not mocked, if we serve Him, let’s serve Him. We cannot continue to grow as a Nation by oppressing, delaying justice, hating, having the ME ME ME mentality. As Martin Luther King Jr said, ‘no one is free until we are all free.’
Things have got to change and it begins with us. It begins with each and every one of us borrowing courage to stand for what we believe in. Fela Durotoye once said, ‘that thing that annoys you most in society is a sign that you carry its solution.’ (I’m paraphrasing)
Nothing has called out to me more than people, especially women, suffering in some way and hiding the pain. Whatever we cover doesn’t go away. It grows and it finds different outlets to rear its ugly head until we deal with it.
I am not perfect, I will never be, but I am enough to try what I feel might work. I don’t know what the entire bible says but I am learning and applying the little I find outdaily. And I think everyone owes it to himself or herself to figure it out forthemselves.
At the end of the day, we agree that ‘men of God’ are firstly men, right? This means it’s needless expecting them to help you in your growth with God. I fell into that trap of thinking a ‘man of God’ is equated to God and it is not new to find people fall in that hole.
How do you begin to learn to serve a God you have never seen? It takes another level of faith to do that but we live in a generation/Country where people don’t want to study for themselves. They don’t want to read the Scriptures. Well, they don’t want to read, period. They want to pursue things instead and have somebody do the praying and studying for them. If you fall in that category, you need to repent.
I learnt that when the veil was torn, we all were given equal access to the Father. No matter how long you may have been in church, if you don’t know what that means you better ask somebody. And seek a real relationship with the God you claim to serve.
That is what I am spending most of my time doing these days. Praying, studying, seeking, knocking. The peace I have felt despite all the hate mails and tantrums shows that God is not angry with me and I did what I needed to do to the best of myunderstanding.
My apologies to everyone this has affected in one way or another.
Firstly, my family: I don’t know how you guys aren’t sick of me yet
Secondly, ‘the body of Christ,’ my intention was never to cause trouble but to stop a rot I felt might spread and become worse if nobody spoke up about it.
Lastly, to those who said I shouldn’t blog again, I respect and understand your concerns but the truth is, writing is not just my gift, it is also my ‘curse’. I cannot ‘NOT’ write but I PROMISE, this is the last I will say on this issue except the christian body needs to see me.
God is building His church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. No sin is too big to wreck anyone’s faith. If it does, then it means it’s working out a greater good for you. You will definitely come out stronger and better in the end. Like my best friend says “in the end, it will be all right and if it ain’t alright, it’s not the end.”
“…forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” Paul.
Cheers to the weekend people
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Ese walta pls its ok. Since u luv 2 write, y not writ on oda isues? Abeg leav d poor pastor alone. Havnt u done enough harm? 0r r u stil in luv wit him dat u can't allow slEepin dog 2 lie? Wat is ur problem self?
ReplyDeleteThis vehemently shows that you are a fan of Pastor Biodun. How foolish are you to blame this woman for revealing all this ? Let her speak her mind for there are lots of this going on as we speak. This alone would have set a lot of abused women or girls free. Check yourself well, you are the one with problems (not even problem).
DeleteWow ESE there is no gain saying that your account is the truth of the purest order. The best you can do is to stay focus and look unto Jesus the author and the finisher of your faith. The world can say all they want but what matters most is what God says and how He witness to your conscience. I am proud of you, I love you a great deal. I will pray for you for divine strength to overcome the power of evil. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteEse my sister,I want you to be courageous as this is a trying period for you and I pray that God in his infinite mercy will see you through in Jesus name.Amen
ReplyDelete"Secondly, ‘the body of Christ,’ my intention was never to cause trouble but to stop a rot I felt might spread and become worse if nobody spoke up about it."
ReplyDeleteAssuming what you are saying is true (I can't say it is a lie either) it would be best if you went ahead and published your evidence the same way you published the articles the sexcapades with the pastor.
Good! At least the evidence when published will shut those defending the evil pastor up. Show us the evidence & see how far it will go to teach such pastrors a lesson. Go on ESE,show us !
DeleteEse great to see ur faith isnt down!..great write up ,hope to see more.hope&know you will overcome at the last day... pa whizzy
ReplyDeleteIf d Pastor dis it,who is the Judge,is it not God? You love writing things that is hazardous to d Church(even though u no fit)? Pls writing to edify and not to blackmail or haven't u heard..love(God's love) covers a multitude of sin....pls Nigerians are bored already with the gist. The devil knows d scriptures anyway,but the Understanding are given to the saints(God's kids who are in Christ)!
ReplyDeletePls. Ese Walter , d world have had ur purported account wit man of GOD.going furthet to write more wil be anti Christ,a cheap blackmail & a diversionary intention. Its ok or u lose d story's credibility.
ReplyDeleteEse I wanna know ur blog.pls add me n send it to me here 26D12C02 or gentle_breezev@yahoo.com.I wanna talk to u in pv8.God bless u
ReplyDeleteConscience is an open wound. Speak up and free ur conscience and in the, only God has the right judge
ReplyDeleteEse,of most important for u now are, personal retreat for clensing,regeneration,circumcision and sanctification. Go awol and be silent as you reconcile with God. D more u talk d more it hurts and refreshes bad memories and paints u bad, thanks
ReplyDeleteThis Ese can talk! As much as ppl will like to read more of d revelations, pls note that it is too lengthy....boring!
ReplyDeleteEse,your dressing modifies how unfaithful you are.You are so indecent and imodest.Who knows who seduced each other?Have appologised to God for foregivenes if you are touched and overwelmed by your escapes and emotion,or writing about to demolish the name and image of the man of God?
ReplyDeleteWe are all created in the image of God and i believe we are equal in the eyes of God anointed or not.
ReplyDeleteWe should not condemn one and leave the other.So,do not be fast to judge Ese because she also is created by God.
d way she dress does not mean any thing.dat is wat d pastors teach in churches.but let me tell u d last day u will no d meaning of dat dressing.in d present of my father d almighty jehova
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ReplyDeleteU guy sud stop condeming Ese. If wat she has said bout d rlationship btw hr nd d so calld pastor r false, let him(pastor) come out nd dfend himself.fenkz 4 d courage Ese. So many fake pastors around,am not surprisd tho cos d bible says many r calld put few r chosen...So help us God
Ese u need deliverance I swear,I know U ave a mission Wat is your problem are u not tired,does that mean u are so jobless and wayward.pls leave dis pastor alone.Please Pastors Beware of dis g
ReplyDeleteEse, don't forget the bible said, " that women adorn themselves in modest apparel". The bible,already knows that "the lust of the flesh" is a sin. And with this provocative dressing am seeing, that probably u would Av shown ur pastor to have a look at while were playing ur "loving lovinda" must Av caused all these. If u truly are now born again, start attending churches like Deeper Life, Mountain of Fire and Miracles, The Lord Chosen and free yourself of all these make up that could send men to hell. "God's love towards that none shud perish Bt that all should come to repentance". "God is not mocked,whatever a man soweth, that shall he reap also". Yeye girl
ReplyDeleteAnonymous 5.20am,All these churches you have adviced her to run to,all have their different can of worms waiting to be exposed. So,look b4 u leap!
DeleteEse, i can't even imagine what you must be going through. We have become so blinded by our pastors that when we see or hear the truth we don't believe it. What did the world expect u to do? Keep quite and behave as everything is alright? No way! When u exposed him to his other pastors and they did nothing, u did the only logical thing! Expose him! I'll keep praying for both of you. The Lord is indeed your strength. Those if u talking about her dress are just pathetic. Get a life!
ReplyDeleteI don't understand why more blame & criticism is appropriated to the one that wrote to expose a societal ill that is almost consuming the church more than the one accused of doing so. People should be more worried about how to get to the bottom of the issue rather than creating unnecessary distractions. Nobody should pretend about not knowing that most of these new generation churches are operating to achieve their own personal objectives & not that of the church & the body of Christ. Especially those not affiliated to the previously conventional Catholic,Anglican & methodist churches. Most of them have greatly deviated from the directives the originator of the Christian faith,which is Christ. Christ was never known with acquisition of material wealth neither did he allow his flesh to experience worldly pleasures as the new generation pastors are doing. How many of them are ready to die the way almost all disciples of Christ did, they died painful deaths bcos they proclaimed the truth & stood by it. Most of today's men of God do the opposite to get different gifts & remunerations from the unworthy. The Church is gradually crumbling as their objectives are far from being attained. The proliferation of churches today is directly proportional to crime rate & people's indulgence in various forms of impunity. They've studied the Bible so much that they know how to find verses of the Bible that justify their various misdeeds including improper dressing, various abuses of moral virtues perpetrated by them & their members. They have made people to see the Bible as an inconsistent holy book bcos of the way various 'Men of God interpret it to suit their personal objectives. Except we all decide to speak on this subject without BIAS,the church will soon be swallowed by the Evil men that pretend to represent it...........Chris Abara.
ReplyDeleteI have feeling that this more than correcting abnormallity in the church. Its about getting at the Pastor. Its just blackmail.Am not supporting anyone on this issue. If Ese mind is disturbed, he should also list all the names of Men she has had sex with. Because the Pastor is man of God.(His only human).You had sex with quite lots people before the pastor. Start naming them and we would see if you are not trying to get at someone.I still feel, if the Pastor had anything to with her. He should seek for repentance and resistution. Its so bad that the Pastor is careless.
ReplyDeleteI love virtually every line of what you write. What a brilliant girl you are Ese! I wish I could meet you someday. Now to all those opposing you in any dimension on this matter, it's a shame they are so gullible. They are the type that has drag this nation behind. Know nothing about the scriptures and all they do is lick religious leader's butts! Ese you are going about this thing very maturely. Keep it up. Be strong. You are special. Much love and respect for you. Take care..
ReplyDeleteIs Pastor Biodun the first and the last person she slept with. Abeg leave story. She has something under her sleeve. If you want to come out clean, let's have the name of the man that deflowered you. Am very sure, Pastor is not the last person you slept with. Fine, you have brought him down what next. The work of God can not be stop.You ruin a whole congregation because of your selfish motives. Bravo,Great work,courageous lady. You have only murder sleep. Big hissssss..
ReplyDeleteHave you guys even bothered to check the homepage of COZA? There's not even one message or article there by Pastor Biodun on immorality or righteousness. Its all about Finance, Breakthrough, Prosperity, etc. But. Jesus said we should "seek first the KINGDOM OF GOD AND ITS RIGHTEOUSNESS, and every other thing shall be added unto you". It is very easy for a "prosperity messenger" to ignore the weightier part of Christianity and stray into sexual escapades with his unsuspcting members. The Pastor needs to confess. Ese is one of those who have been emboldened by God to expose the rot in the church. Period.
ReplyDeleteEse, you are a fine writter and extraordinary person.
ReplyDeleteCould you please write about the Lecturers you had sex with in your days at the university. The lecturer too want to confess. Do you remenber your friend boyfriend you were sleeping with. Please we need you to come total clean. But, why are you focusing on Pastor Biodun, i think something is wrong somewhere. A lady keep things like this to herself unless its a matter of life and death.
Pastor Biodun, you messed up with the wrong chic. You allow her to pay for your bills during your vacation in London. What? You don't the spirit of discernment. You didn't make the Holyspirit your close pal. You need the mercy and the grace of God to come out clean. Because, more are still coming.
Finally, Ese this just blackmail. You have done your own. Your own secrets too would be exposed in due time. All those telling, you are brave, courageous etc would be the one to pull you down. You have started a war so you must finish it.
Ese, Ur a big disgrace and nobody is begging u to stop. D man didnt give u d promise and then u went to the press to disrespect the Church of God and may be d man. If u didnt plan to create this scandal how come u have the recording of ur affairs and discussion with him in London. Do u tape ur dealings with every man u ve me? How come u went for a whole week to enjoy sex with d same man ur now scandalizing? Never felt bad for any one day in d whole 1week. How come its weeks after u finished dat u came back to Nigeria to try to see d man according to u? u said d man refused to see u wen u returned and tried to see him and wen he did, he started moving to sleep with u again... Y did u make case after d meeting with him if not dat ur request was not met? "Sympathizers" dat enjoy hearing d fall of men of God dat wont take up to be a pastor..started showing Wolf whereas ur to be reprimanded by ur immoral parents for throwing ur dignity to d dust and showing d world dat u did. U didnt tell us if he Gave u money or not while in UK but I know he will bcos u said he asked u to order anything u like in d hotel. U didn't tell us if u returned d money to him or not when u realized suddenly dat u ve sinned. If a person realize that he has sinned, d way forward will be to...turn away from the sin and confess to God and ask for forgiveness from God....but u went to the press to repent ur own..U will rotten in hell fire and God will declare u useless for ridiculing d body of Christ if u don't obtain mercy for this damage u ve done to a man and the Body of Christ...
ReplyDeleteCan people live Ese alone and face the greater issue here, Pastor B should either come out and confess he did it or not.
ReplyDeleteI can't understand why on earth Coza has not given a statement on how they will deal with this issue. Should Pastor B be guilty how can they allow a man who has an obvious weakness for women continue to lead thier congregation???????
Can we live Ese alone and face the greater issue here. Is pastor B guilty or not? If he is what is COZA doing about it. If he is there is a big problem
ReplyDeleteIf a Pastor who clearly has an obvious weakness for women is allowed to lead a congregation.
That is the issue and not who tempted whom or what not.
Ese U are just parthetic. Pls keep quiet and let us rest if you cant publish the evidence like you did the articles of (claimed) confession, y give d evidence to a pastor or who ever u claimed u gave it to, y didnt u go and confess to d person u gave d evidence to instead of coming to d media. Publish the evidence or forever be quiet. Nonsense
ReplyDeleteI am not trying to judge you or in any one that has been in this position but my thoughts are you fell for it the first time but the subsequent visits which you clearly went to him of your free will means you consented so if you want to write about it. Which I must say at this point that you are an articulate writer means you should sell your writing talents but do not point fingers as you are both consenting adults..... Cheating comes to men naturally for women, it is an intent. I am not saying it is right this way but knowing these gaps on men should sort of guide us to guide them? That's why the saying that, " women are mothers of a nation". What this mean sis, though we may not be happy with it means we have to be the stronger ones........ Take a cue from there babes and move on.
ReplyDeleteYour dressing by the way by may not have the intent of sexual manipulation but it sure does look manipulative.....
ReplyDeleteAbeg, u people should leave Ese alone. Rather concentrate on the pastor who has refused to come out all these while to defend himself.
DeleteDavid Nna Amadi(294FBB8)... Ese, U seduced d pastor jst 2 blackmail him, COZA & cause huge damage 2 d body of christ.Ur frequent & wilfully visit 2 sex d pastor Justifies dis.if u were seduce d ist day wat abt other days whch u consetted out of ur volition.Get ready 4 ur damnation, u cheap prostitude of demonic spirit.wooo to u,candidate of Hell
ReplyDeleteSis, after what you claimed happened, you are still visiting "Man of God" to submit evidence instead of WOMAN of God abi???
ReplyDeleteLet that "Man of God" watch and pray o, before we read another articulate revelation from the Lady of the moment.
If I can drop an advice Ese, stop following Men of God for whatever reason (even to drop your evidence). These Pastors have wives that can listen to you and relay your submissions.
Thank u
If am the judge I will ask Ese whether the pastor raped her. Is that not what she was looking for hoping from one church to another? After the pastr spent church money on u and good times in London now out of the fear f nemesis to come and after becoming aware that the pastor don't want to continue with the relationship you want to tarnish his image, why can't u just go down on ur knees and pray 4 forgiveness. The end time will surely come young gal, u wil tell God why you open your legs or rather seduced a man of God.
ReplyDeleteEse, I wish you well. This your last write 'convict' me more of your genuineness. I seems to see what push you with the man's reaction thus far. It is well with you. Your decision to let is lie, seems to be good. Leave all to God. The God of heaven will sought you out. Ayo
ReplyDeleteTo the person that said she is disgracing herself, I say she is not. Ese you are doing the right. Keep exposing him. The bible says" To whom much is given, much is expected". Ese is not a pastor. The pastor has a bigger obligation to keep himself pure and not allow anyone to tempt him. But if he was tempted, he has himself to blame. Is like the thief who stole gold and claim the gold was so shinning. Girls cannot stop being beautiful just so that men will not admire them. Who doesn't want to be admired anyway. Ese was in London studying and not within sight of the pastor when he decided to travel all the way to London to start affair with her. I am not blaming just the pastor. They are both to blame. But at least one person has come clean and confessed. The next person now is the pastor. It takes two to tango. The matter is a big one b'cos of the type of caliber of the man involved. So stop asking Ese to talk about her past lovers. What does that have to do with the pastor of a large congregation sleeping with all his members. Ese did not commit adultery. The pastor did.
ReplyDeleteEse, you have not told us your problem with this Pastor. I suspect strongly that he is( or one of those) the one that sponsored your academic programme in London while the romance lasted. I also believe that he must have been spoiling you with big things and gifts while his special anointing lasted. you have not mentioned all these things but in my spiritual eyes I have seen all-- joy rides,fat bank alerts,expensive shopping all at the expense of congregation's tithes,seeds and offerings. Now you want a duplex? Isn't It?. Well, extortion and Blackmail has just increased in Nigeria same like kidnapping and I believe that the man of God has fallen. May God help him. You have not done this or are not doing this because you have repented or love him to change. You are simply a job lady who know how to get what you wants. Chikena!
ReplyDeleteEfe, you are shameless and well tutored in the act of blackmail and fraud. What about your other boyfriends? Assuming you are right, you are only talking about Pastor Biodun because of his position in the Church and the society at large. Useless ladies like you who have no future ambition constitute a danger to the menfolk; especially the young upwardly mobile men. Guys, beware, no one is immune to this kind of blackmail. It is a new way of 'making it big' by desperados (desparate ladies) just like kidnapping. Ese, stop this damage now or the wrath of God will consume you! Pastor Biodun, my heart goes out to you. Take heart, this too shall pass. You are a real man of God and I and some of my friends have benefitted so much from your ministry and leadership. The Bible says that all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Please learn your lessons, shake it off and move on in life.
ReplyDeleteEse, you better meet Afrocandy and discuss on taking up one of the roles in her Adult movie, you will make some cool bucks.The man of God de do before but he say he no de do again. Na by force!.If you like do road show and walk all Nigeria cities,I know you just dealt with the man of God and he has got his senses back.Or, you can try the Pastors of another mega-rich church after all na money you need to maintain the Abuja Big babe status.
ReplyDeleteYou are not sincer about the whole issue,it is very obvious that you are trying to get at the Pastor, if not, why not go to the respected pastor you claim to give the evidence to make the confession, why go to the media, are there no elders in the church you could talk to? look at your language in your so called confession, it sounds like that of a person who have not really known Christ, while here you sound spiritual. are you a double agent?
ReplyDeleteEse, you are not wrong by what you did. Those who are castigating you are not even Christians, let alone being true Christians. They are just church goers if at all they go to church. One thing they do not know is that one day each of them will answer for what they said and did on this earth. Let them continue to talk and castigate you. You have rested your case.. Move ahead and make complete peace with God. Those people that are condemning you seem to be showing blind eyes to what is happening today in the church of God. They have messed up the pulpit in the name of pastoring a church or being a "man of God"?. Of course the Bible said it that all these things will happen in the last days. But why should anybody allow himself to be a culprit? What you meant is that this mess should stop. But those who are ignorant are calling you names that you are blackmailing the church? Do they know what the church means? No. So, please go ahead and live a righteous and holy life now that you have freed your conscience. Confess your sins to God and try to know God more and more so that those castigating you will regret it when they see you in the Kingdom of God. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteDearly beloved Ese, I wish to borrow the words of our Lord " Neither do I condemn you, go and sin no more" Jn 8:1-11.
ReplyDeleteIf all you have reported is true, then I must say you are indeed a very courageous woman. Move on and please do not make any further comment as promised. But if it is a lie, the consequences are grievous oooo.
To Biosun Fatoyinmbo, Man of God, you are accountable to God. I do not also condemn you but search your conscience. 1John 3:20 If our conscience condemns us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. There are three major witnesses in every act of this nature; God, the Man and the Woman, the devil may be peeping am not too sure.
To the commentators, pls lets stop trading words. These words are not helping the situation. All they need right now is our prayers. It is a sad story for the church of God but we cannot continue to wound our wounded soldiers.
Elders of COZA please step in. Investigate this matter and see to peaceful resolution and restoration of parties concerned.
My worry is that our new churches do not see need for Elders Council. Pastors today are Superstar and Thin "gods". Their words are laws. They do not want anyone to query finances and structures so they appoint pastors they can hire and fire using the pretense of "spiritual authority" Even the composition of the Board of Trustees is same.
Trust me, if COZA had Elders Council when the Assistant Pastor did not address this matter properly, Elders would have maturely looked at it and it would have rested with leadership rather than becoming public mess we have today.
May the Almighty God help the Church
Tony Ochei
we av so many ''men of God' deceiving the gullibles. dont be carried away with all these motivational speakers calling themselves man of God. Rev 22:12...Behold i come quickly...................
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